I hope someday people stop self- pitying so they can start enjoying life. Humans aren’t the key to happiness. Theres much more to live for than just human companionship. Try self- love and then others will start viewing you as “normal” and actually be able to have a 2 minute conversation without you saying how bad you want to kill yourself. By the way if its that bad, just do it. And if you don’t succeed then you didnt actually want to die.